Inspired by Naval Ravikant

Hello everyone, it’s been a long day, without you my friend and I’ll tell you all abou….

Stop singing.

But seriously, it has been quite sometime since I opened this website of mine and decided to write something. All 3 of you reading this post might be wondering as to how I am still alive! Fortunately, for you 3 people, I will never be out of content:)

A really weird thing happened today, my employer turned into my school teacher. He demanded me to write at least a page everyday. Write a page of what you may ask? Even I don’t know! He just wants me to improve my writing skills. If I’m being honest, he wants me to improve my emotional writing skills but how do I tell him that have no emotions! Zero, zilch! If I had emotions, I would’ve been a normal human being. Period. With a dot.

But for his sake and mine, I have decided to start writing something. I think I’ll probably just go ahead with giving out my opinions on the book, “The Almanack of Naval Ravikant” by author Eric Jorgensen (yes, I did copy his last name from Google).

Apart from that I was also hoping that I would restart my podcast by the end of October for sure. I’m going to make it a bit more educational for my sake to be honest. I want to learn a few things in life and what’s better than sitting with an expert and directly asking them that?

So for now. That’s the plan. Hope to deep dive into it from next week. Wish me luck. Looking forward to reading your feedbacks and opinions.

Hello 2022 *

So cliche, the heading.

I feel like this year is quite important to take a resolution. With all the shit we’ve been through since the past 2 years, making a conscious effort to actually look forward to something, can probably make life easier.

I have taken a lot of resolutions before (of course) but it all never worked out. Now that I look at it, it is not about if you were able to keep them up or if you were able to succeed in your promise, it is about how you gave it a try because life is just a bunch of trials and errors. Then we all die.

This year I have decided to take resolution in a more mental way.

I have decided to be more assertive in my approach.

I have decided to take on more responsibilities and not run from them.

Last but not the least, I have decided to be happy and grateful.

I feel it only takes a perspective to change your life. It does take a lot of strength to do it too. So keep trying guys, it doesn’t matter if it works out or no, it’s all about the effort. It is all about how you gave it a shot. Do it. Do what you have wanted to do, even if you don’t succeed.

Have fun, enjoy and be yourself. That’s what this year should be about. Also, take care and don’t go out .

*Wrote it when I was high.**

** Jk, I don’t do drugs

Toxic work environment

Have you ever felt that your boss was being extremely appreciative of your work and that the more he appreciated the more you felt like working, regardless of the situation?

If yes, then let me tell you that what your boss is doing is the oldest trick in the book to make you work overtime without any compensation and without any actual admiration.

Words can be deceiving.*

Especially when appreciations are idle and don’t help you grow into an individual. Especially to a student who has absolutely no clue about what to expect at a workplace. Being a guide and a great mentor is what a student looks for.

Back to the point, you might be wondering as to how I, Krisha Doshi, know about such toxic environment? Answer: Experience. Just came out of a workplace which was not only toxic but also had no credibility. Turns out this pandemic made everyone quite desperate to cling onto whatever they could find.

The story of my experience there is for another time but for now I’m just willing to put out an advice.

Do not ever trust anyone easily. Take your time to make judgements. If the employer is not helping you out if you’re stuck somewhere, that’s a huge red flag because that environment is not going to help you grow.

Fight for what is right. If the person isn’t treating you well, speak up. Loudly.

Last but not the least, don’t do drugs.

*Especially if they are coming from a loser whose company literally does not exist anywhere on the internet because that person achieved nothing in his/her life because busy fighting with an intern who asked for her stipend.

Weep

You know what I feel right now? I feel like I have nothing. I am not special in any way, I’m the most average a person can ever be. I have no talents, I have nothing to look forward to.

I feel extremely insecure, I have the worst self-esteem issues and right now they are at their peak. Honestly, if you ask me anything about myself right now, I will probably breakdown and cry because I am completely embarrassed of who I am at the moment. I feel like I have accomplished nothing at that I cannot be better than the average human being. I still haven’t found an internship even after searching foe an entire month and it feels like the most unproductive time of my life.

I am going to curl up into a ball and cry thoughout the night. It’s nothing different though, I kind of do that every oter month but the last five to six months were not so terrible so it’s the first time this year. I feel like I am going to cry a who fucking river and I honestly can’t wait for that. I feel like shit and I am just going to let it all out. Get all th enegative thoughts along with all the frustration.

I wish you guys a good day and myself an amazing fucking crying session.

Chill

Sometimes I wonder if it is the right thing to add this blog as an achievement on my CV. It’s funny because I got a call the other day asking me of I could elaborate a bit more on what I write and the whole theme of it to which I replied “It’s timepass”.

Honestly, no shame. I should not have said that because the dude cut the call short and said that they’ll let me know if I was being selected for the internship.

Well, if I am being honest they are probably missing out on me if they are judging me by this blog. They have no clue of how creative and cool I am. I am hardworking, dedicated and cool as fuck. Ask my previous employers, they absolutely love me and want me to be a prt pf their team again after I graduate.

Anyway, that’s not the point. The point is that if anyone is judging you for your personal life and not your professional life, don’t listen to them or even work for them. Everyone has shit going on in their life and if they are not bringing it to their work, it’s no one’s business.

Also, recruiters, if you’re reading this, I’m damn funny and cool to be around, so give me a chance *tch* *tch*

Grief

Grief is such a big part of everyone’s lives. Grief is one of the biggest enablers of a lot of people’s actions because when you’re saddened by some event, your brain sends you into a deep self analysis ritual.

Death of a loved one is the worst of it all. It makes you re-think every possible decision you’ve ever made. Not only a loved one but also the death of an acquaintance or someone you just saw everyday, it still makes you brain go haywire.

I recently lost a childhood friend and I just couldn’t wrap my head around it. I didn’t know what to feel. We were friends during our childhood but then we lost a bit of contact and we didn’t really talk much. We never even spoke a word to each other in years but I used to see him almost everyday and all we did was wave at each other. It was kind of our ritual. An unspoken rule. Every night I would go out for a walk and I expected to see him sitting at the same bench everyday. We never even said ‘Hi’. We just nod at each other and acknowledge each other’s existence and that was it.

I wasn’t present in the city when he passed away. I had my other friends tell me about what and how it happened.

If I’m being honest, he never played any part in my life but it just feels weird to not nod or wave at someone every night while i go out for a walk. Since I was not even present for the funeral, I couldn’t even get a closure.

Human brain is so weird, like I was the least important person in his life too but somehow my thoughts were about what would have happened if i was there. If I could’ve done something to save him. Such a stupid thought to have, giving yourself so much significance when you internally know that if you were there, you would’ve peed your pants and cried your eyes out.

What I’m trying to say is, be nice to everyone. You won’t regret being nice to them when they die.

Anyway…

I have no idea of what is happening. Honestly. After coming back ome, internally, I had made sure to be extremely productive and start this new year in the most positive manner. I had created a list of plans and the timeline by which I would have completed everthing and made sure it was absolutely perfect, but here I am, already missing out on a couple of weeks of publishing another blog post, having the shittiest voice on the podcast and, last but not the least, without an internship.

The only enterntainment every afternoon for me has been watching some kick-ass mafia movie and admiring young Al Pacino. (But seriously, he did look amazing when he was young. Especially in The Godfather.) Anyway, that is not the point. The point is that no matter how much you plan, life won’t always work out your way and that is a fact. The only thing that we can do is try. So try and keep trying. There is no end to trying. Keep messing up, keep planning, maybe one way or the other it will work out for you. Maybe not the way you thought it would but compromising is a sometimes the only option to stay happy.

So, anyway, one day after a couple of failed interviews and rejecting a few unpaid internships, I felt like I had completely failed at making this year great. It was already mid-February and I felt like I had accomplished absolutely nothing and I that was a total waste.

After crying for hours and contemplating on what is to be done, I decided to take one thing at a time and not fuck it up. Multi-tasking can often ruin everything and that is exactly happened. Keeping up with everything just made me suck at everything I did. So finally I decided to focus on just one thing and not do everything in one day. I told myself to not be hard on myself and just take one step at a time and if you ask me now, it has been better than before. I do not feel like I am forcing myself to do anything and I am enjoying the process more now.

And that is the gyaan for today kids. Don’t fuck everything up.

And do not touch drugs.

We will agree to disagree

It’s okay to not know something. It’s perfectly fine. Do not let anyone tell you otherwise.

We are all learning and we all talk our own time. It’s okay to not completely know about politics and it’s completely normal to sometimes not know the current affairs. There is nothing wrong with that. So do not by any means give out any half-ass knowledge about anything because that is definitely more dangerous. In Hindi, theres a phrase for it, “chalti gaadi meh matt chadh chutiye” which loosely translates to “shut the fuck up if you have no clue about the topic being discussed”

Putting out your opinion is different that putting out a fact. Not everyone has to agree with your opinion and that’s a fact. You are never going to be able to agree with everyone on anything so do not waste your precious time in doing the same.

You have got to live by only one mantra which is “we’ll agree to disagree”. We all have our opinions and not facts so please stop forcing down your opinions into everyone’s throats. Everyone’s brain is different but that doesn’t mean you should entertain dumbfucks. You’ll know a dumbfuck when you see one.

So don’t worry so much about everyone’s opinions because they are mere thoughts and not facts.

You shouldn’t do drugs and thats a fact.

Nervousness

If I’m being honest, I’m not just nervous but also extremely excited for this year. I feel that being positive is the only thing that can help someone overcome their hurdles because everything that develops outside in your life, first occurs in your brain.

If one starts being negative, then no matter how many great and amazing opportunities present themselves, the person is going to keep looking at the minute issues.

If we get back to being nervous, sometimes it’s great and sometimes it’s just completely unnecessary. If the person understands the difference between the two, that’s an achievement. Having butterflies in your stomach while starting something new is amazing to have because it shows that you care about what you’re doing and it also makes you work harder at the same but being anxious after everything is done and dusted and you’re just waiting for the outcome, is, in layman’s terms, plain stupid.

So please be more adventurous and stop overthinking about everything. It’s all going to work out and be fine. Just chill and get some chai.

Stop with the drugs.

Guess who’s back.

It has been quite sometime since I have had the opportunity to write something down. I can sit back and give out a long list of excuses as to why I stopped being consistent with my work and stopped posting, but since I’m being honest here, I’ll let you know that my brain had been completely blank. It had been completely saturated and therefore I had decided to go for a long ass vacation and find my will to sleep and breathe.

So now I’m back. Finally. Ready to kick off the Ne.. 3rd week of 2021 with a bang. Get ready to not just read my thoughts but also hear them now in my upcoming ….. *drumroll* PODCAST!! I haven’t officially anounced it yet but I really couldn’t hold it in anymore so I had to barf it out somewhere and what’s better than the place I usually love throwing up all the crazy thoughts in my brain? So here I am, trying really hard to get my shit together.

It has been quite a crazy time for everyone in the world but I hope, like really hope, like really really really hope that my upcoming podcast makes at least 0.00005% difference in your life in a positive way. I am not going to give out many details yet but just know that I’m extremely excited.

My plan this year is to be more dedicated to this blog and keep updating regularly while I also work hard on my other projects. Please stay tuned for more of my articles, I have a lot of interesting drafts ready.

And just like always keep smiling and stay away from drugs.